Published by Random House on September 5th 2013
Genres: Abuse, Contemporary, YA Romance, Young Adult
At seventeen, Mathéo Walsh appears to have it all. He is a champion diver and a hot prospect for the upcoming Olympics. He is a heartthrob, a straight A student and lives in one of the wealthiest areas of London. He has great friends and is the envy of many around him. And most importantly of all, he is deeply in love with his girlfriend, Lola. He has always been a stable, well-adjusted guy . . .Amazon •
Until one weekend. A weekend he cannot seem to remember. All he knows is that he has come back a changed person. One who no longer knows how to have fun, no longer wants to spend time with his friends, no longer enjoys diving. Something terrible happened that weekend – something violent and bloody and twisted. He no longer knows who he is. He no longer trusts himself around people: he only wants to hurt, wound and destroy. Slowly, he begins to piece back the buried, fragmented memories, and finds himself staring at the reflection of a monster.
Tormented, Mathéo suddenly finds himself faced with the most devastating choice of his life. Keep his secret, and put those closest to him in terrible danger. Or confess, and lose Lola forever . . .
Mature-Content Rating: Language, Violence, Sexual Content, Trigger Warnings
“It is not some dramatic breakdown. Rock bottom, in fact, is very mundane: it is simply an inability to see the point in anything and only wonder why on earth everything looks and feels so bad, so painful and so wrong. He feels stuck somewhere between dead and alive, and cannot imagine any place worse.”
There are so many things that went wrong in this book. First off, the main characters, Matheo and Lola. There’s nothing that really connects the reader to the main characters so I never developed feelings for them. In fact, Matheo was down right annoying as a narrator. His inner monologs took up pages on how much he was in love with Lola, or how beautiful a sunset was, and then he would repeat himself in the next chapter. I’m sure I ended up skimming over most of it toward the end of the book.
I don’t understand the point of Matheo losing his memory of the accident. It didn’t add anything to the story and it made his character even more confusing. Maybe the author was trying to make a huge build-up to the eventual big reveal at the end, but it fell completely flat. In fact, most techniques fell flat. At one point the author tried to redirect your thoughts into a different direction which just made one big mess of Matheo’s dialog.
At one point at the end of the book Matheo suddenly became a psychic and had a dream about a future event! *gasp*! It was unnecessary and deserved a facepalm of shame.
Lola isn’t as bad as Matheo, but she can be melodramatic and she doesn’t react well to the situation for someone who is so in love with the boy. Their best friends, Hugo and Isabel, are the only two who have a realistic reaction to the situation and I found those characters the most intriguing.
The topic of the story is one that defiantly one that needs to be highlighted more and I love that the author tried to bring it into the light, but the book failed miserably. The characters were underdeveloped, the dialog was flat, and the story repeated itself too much for the reader to be able to get too deep into the plot.